I was going to go downstairs, but I told myself – wait. I need to read chapter 3 and write my morning papers before I do.
I am reading Chapter three in The Complete Artist Way. The author touches on three good topics: Anger (it’s good for you), Synchronicity (we tend not to believe in them and we should), and the last one is on criticism. There’s bad criticism and there’s good.
I believe it is all in how you say it – she does too. She provides suggestions on how to deal criticism. At the end, she says many blocked people are actually very powerful and creative personalities who have been made to feel guilty about their own strengths and gifts.
I know I chose and made decisions to “prove” other people wrong and it wasn’t necessarily the things that I wanted to do or things that made me happy. Here I am, recognizing my own strengths, weaknesses, and struggling with my own identity, I am attempting to figure out where do I go from the next 20 years that I may have left of my own life.
She asks at the end of the Criticism chapter for me to free-associate for a sentence or so with each phrase:
My favorite childhood toy was Barbie Dolls
My favorite childhood game was – I didn’t really like games
The best movie I ever saw as a kid was Star Wars (the first one that came out in 1977)
I don’t do it much, but I enjoy bowling
I I could lighten up a little, I’d let myself act on stage. (I enjoyed designing sets though)
If it weren’t too late, I’d go back to college and get a MFA in fine arts
My favorite musical instrument is the piano
The amount of money I spend on treating myself to entertainment each month is very little
If I weren’t so stingy with my artist, I’d buy myself a print studio and ceramic studio
Taking time out for myself is important
I am afraid that if I start daydreaming I’d be unhappy
I secretly enjoy reading art history
If I had a perfect childhood, I’d grown up to be a art teacher
If it didn’t sound so crazy I’d write poetry or make a deck lattice
My parents think artists are crazy
My God thinks artists are wonderful
What makes me feel weird about this recovery is connecting with my vulnerability which I don’t like.
Learning to trust myself is probably 50/50 right now. I do it most of the time
My most cheer me up music is “Nothing is going to stop Us now” by Starship.
My favorite way to dress is a comfortable pair of jeans, with tank top and sandals.
Last thing she touched on was growth. Two steps forward and one step back. And of course, she has tasks at the end that we have to work on for the week. They all revolve around friends, mentors, habits, traits and childhood memories. Hmm. Not an easy one this week.
Time to go downstairs.